mother tersea's prayer.

this is a great prayer.

Deliver me, Jesus

From the desire of being esteemed,

From the desire of being loved,

From the desire of being extolled,

From the desire of being honored,

From the desire of being praised,

From the desire of being preferred to others,

From the desire of being consulted,

From the desire of being approved,

Deliver me, Jesus

From the fear of being humiliated,

From the fear of being despised,

From the fear of suffering rebukes,

From the fear of being calumniated,

From the fear of being forgotten,

From the fear of being ridiculed,

From the fear of being wronged,

From the fear of being suspected,

Jesus, grant me the grace to desire

That others may be loved more than I,

That others may be esteemed more than I,

That in the opinion of the world,

others may increase, and I may decrease,

That others may be chosen and I set aside,

That others may be praised and I unnoticed,

That others may be preferred to me in everything,

That others may become holier than I,

provided that I may become as holy as I should.

-mother teresa, my hero.

Heavenly Father
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancing
Invade my heart
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens
Is buried treasure
Will you sell yourself
To buy the one you've found?

Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me

Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us wicked sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons

-jon foreman

if i could write, i would want to write like this guy.

a long time coming...

i have been thinking about starting a blog for a long time now and with all the recent change in my life, i have a lot of free time to do so and commit to it. back in the day i had a xanga, that was interesting. i would post a bunch of emotional bull $hit and feed off what my xanga community left on the comment board. it was not very healthy. i can manage my emotions more today then yesterday so we will see how this blog goes down.

because the lord has blessed me with a plethora of insight and an insane amount of discernment and wisdom far beyond my years, i consider it my duty to share it all with the world! yeh right... i don't have no degree, no professional training. i'm just a country boy with big city dreams and a heart that loves and is dependant upon jesus christ. and that's all one really needs.

some topics i would like to blog about, other then the occasional update of the life of chad, include the following:

-some of my thoughts and experiences with christ exalting community.

-some insight on 'suffering' here in america, understanding that our suffering does not compare to what paul describes in the new testament. life is WAR! (2 corinthians 6:4-10)

-stories and prayer requests for some of our family members who have packed up the american dream and have devoted their lives to service and ministry, over seas or across the street. i just want this blog to lift them up and remind others that christ centered life is all about advancing the story of the gospel. missions...

-mainly dissecting scripture and how we can better apply the word in our day-to-day routine. and relying on the spirit's activity to do what he promised. reminder: no degree, no training. so bear with me. just my thoughts. this is your official disclaimer :)

-i would like to share with readers the books and the music i am currently enjoying...

-the occasional dose of poetry.. don't worry. nothing too emo.. hopefully.

who knows what is to come of this blog. i just pray you are blessed.

paz y amor

-chad